I was so bad trip today. It really takes a lot for me to get my ass up early in the morning... much more on a Sunday morning. So today, I wake up at frigging 5:00am, just so I would make it in time for my 7am shift at the call center. So hurray for me! I wasn't late! (Take note, I have been late every single day, ever since I started in that stupid job. But thank god the company is desperate for agents! Woohoo!) Four hours into my shift, I decide to check what time my break was... then holy shit. What do I see?
You have no schedule today.
What the hell? I wasn't supposed to be at work! I was just so used to working on Sundays that I just assumed I had a shift today. Damn. I gave myself a mental smack on the head for not paying attention to the little details of my job. I'm such a lousy employee. I swear. I was actually kind of happy about going to work today, coz usually overtime is approved and you get paid double. So yippeee. But then, I turn to the service level boards... Fuck. No overtime today. So I just gave Convergys four hours of free service. Hurray for me. Maybe this will give me points to become employee of the month or something.
So anyway, I turn to Tyler to share my stupidity. I was like, "Hey Tyler, you know what's funny and stupid at the same time?"
And I was just expecting him to say, "What?" So I can go through my punchline.
But he was like, "Politics?"
Haha. I completely forgot that "politics" is not the answer to my original question. But yeah, politics is funny and stupid at the same time. Plus, it is actually a more interesting topic to discuss compared to my stupidity. And yes, after hearing him say "Politics?" I felt kinda stupid and shallow to actually say... "No... funny and stupid equals me."
So for the next fifteen minutes I found myself talking about politics with this guy. Before that, I've been reading Zlata's Diary in between calls (Zlata's Diary is sort of like Anne Frank. Except she's in Sarajevo.) The book actually depressed me... to the point that I got a call in the middle of one of her entries... but I was so engrossed in reading about how her bestfriend got killed in a playground... that I fucking released (or hung up) on the guy that was calling me. Like I said, I'm such a lousy agent. But dude, the book was forming my principles right then and there, I don't want to stop that! Who knows, this might end up making me go to Somalia or Africa to help others in need... and then, make the world a better place for you and for me and the entire human race.
Okay. Let me just stop on that.
But seriously though, there has been a lot of stuff around me that had me thinking about the politics that have been going on in the world. The crazy thing about Canada is that people come from all over the world, so you really get exposed to a whole lot of different perspectives. That's kinda what I enjoy about this place, you can frigging talk to anyone (or at least that's what I do, coz I became so pathologically bored at one time that I just wanted to have a decent conversation with ANYONE.) But yeah, one of the reasons why I enjoy taking the bus so damn much is coz I get to talk to a lot of people and I get to ask them stuff about their culture, their history and their experiences in this country as compared to their own.
You know what? The more I talked to other people, the more I see myself as a selfish brat.
Seriously, I used to complain a lot about the state of our country (Philippines), and I just hated the fact that I had to move here for a so-called better life. But then, you meet people from Afghanistan, Africa, Iraq... and the situation in their country is worse than I have ever experienced. You actually start feeling lucky.
The first time I met one of my friends (guess where? at the bus stop!), he was from Africa, and he asked me why I moved here. I was like, "Coz the situation in the Philippines is so bad right now." And he asked me, "Oh really? Why? Is there a war or something?"
That's when I felt guilty for even thinking that I came from a bad place. Seriously, when you're face to face with someone who spent their lifesavings just to get here, coz they were experiencing extreme hunger from where they're from. You'd really realize how luck you actually are. Fuck I always complained about how crowded the MRT was, and how I never had money for Starbucks, and how gas prices were so high. But then, you meet people who didn't complain about war, about not being able to go to school because going to school meant being killed and all that. Dude, it really opens your eyes.
So, I've been interested in war, politics and government recently. I've been frequenting this anti-war website. I don't know, but recently I've been so affected about all the world issues. Seriously. I think its coz I really watched the news for updates on what was happening in Hurricane Katrina and Rita... Seeing people's bodies lined up waiting to be identified... and then you get to read all these editorials from all over the world, saying that the US deserved it coz they were so mean to all the other countries... and that's just so fucked up.
I couldn't imagine how people can actually say that. They say that they're sorry about the victims, but then again they deserve to die coz they were a power-hungry country? WTF? So these victims came from one of the most powerful countries in the world who happens to have a president who wages war on impulse, but when you actually look at them, they're also the same as us. They're also human beings, who work hard to reach their dreams, who care for their loved ones, and who are unfortunate enough to have their dreams shattered and, for some, their families destroyed, coz of a natural calamity. I actually felt bad for all my callers who came from New Orleans coz for some of them, their websites is their only hope to start a new life.
Sometimes, I'd feel so sorry for them that I just want to give them straight out what they need even if its against policies. But then, I have to remind myself that my job requires that I become a robot... and not feel any sympathy for anyone.
So anyway, after those calamities, I surf the web for editorials. And god, reading on all these political bickering makes me feel so sad about the world I live in. I don't know. The government is supposed to make the world a more harmonious and peaceful place to live in. But the way I see it now, its actually the major causes of problems.
Seriously though, there are still some countries in war right now. If the government acts only for the good of the people, then why the hell are people getting killed? Why the hell are they cockblocking the growth of the youth by threatening to kill them if they go to school? I just don't get it... and its possible that its coz I don't know much about politics and the government in general. But I don't see the point of everything. The government is supposed to be helping the people, but the way I see it, every government in the world is actually so detached from its people. Its like the politicians base their judgement on theories that they have studied. They don't know their own people. They look at statistical data and behavioral studies, but for me, politicians don't have a relationship with their people. I still stand to be corrected. But that's how I see it.
Also, what's up with all the ass kissing? Seriously, that's also one thing I don't get. We put so much emphasis on fighting for our country's identity, but we kiss the ass of more powerful countries... for what? I'm not only talking about the Philippines here. I have a friend from here who was part of the Canadian Army (Oh god, you'd be so surprised when you meet her. Imagine, she's almost just as tall as I am. She's kinda petite, and she's always wearing pink. But surprise! She was part of the Canadian Army!). She quit coz she didn't agree with some of the government's views. In her words, "Coz the Canadian Army sucks up the US so much." My trainor at Convergys told me about this time when some of the Canadian soldiers were made to wear US army uniforms coz the US was required to have like 2/3s presence whatever.
Fuck. This is a pretty long rant. Bottom line, when you add all these stuff up... yeah... funny and stupid... politics.
This is only my opinion... for now... could change tomorrow. I don't know. hehehe.
On a lighter note, I finally took the Are you a geek, nerd or dork test! Hahaha. I wanted to disprove that I am actually any of those. But can you say "backfire?"
Here are the results...
Modern, Cool Nerd
78 % Nerd, 65% Geek, 47% Dork
For The Record:
A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.
You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd. Nerds didn't use to be cool, but in the 90's that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn't quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and "geek is chic." The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)!
Okay, so the stupid test says I'm a nerd. Holy shit. This would have been okay, but like I said, the point of taking the test was supposed to disprove that I am actually not. I seemed to have scored higher. Oh god, I am not a nerd!!!
So what if I have my own Harry Potter fan fiction and I'm a member of two fan clubs plus the Home for the Britishly Influenced? So what if I schedule my day around CSI and Everybody Hates Chris? So what if I read psych journals during my free time? So what if I'm always in front in class?
Fuck. I am a nerd. Get real, Ina.
But you know what it doesn't make me feel better to know that...
I scored higher than 91% in nerdosity than most people who took the exam.
And 90% in geekosity.
and 80% in dorkness.
Shyet. To think that people who actually bother to take this test are geeks, nerds, or dorks to begin with. So to my fellow geeks/nerds/dorks... if you're interested, take the test here.
Till next time :)